The worst thing in life is not being alone, but being surrounded by people who make me feel like I am an outsider is even worse. I felt like I was standing behind a window. I could see everything that was going on, I noticed the actions of the variety of people around me, but I wasn’t present. I was looking at everything and it was as if I was looking at the world for the first time. 

Before I stood behind my window, I felt shallow. The daily conversations I would participate in, all filled with drama that just recycled itself as time went on, and made me feel more alone in my life than what I have ever been. I spent countless days among my friends faking smiles and trying to talk about all these shallow topics and I felt alone and I felt like an outsider.

I was different from my friends, from everyone, and I always was. I feel so trapped inside of myself when I am in society. I feel like I have to dull myself down in order to communicate with people my age. I don’t want to be a part of society. I would rather be alone than to stand there and have pointless conversations with people when my mind is filled with a higher thinking.

I want to be challenged in a conversation, I want to be able to think and use my brain when I talk to people, not just idly stand there saying okay or laughing and saying yeah in the fakest way I can.  I would rather be behind my window than a part of society.

I don’t feel like an outsider when I am traveling. I feel happy and content with the people of different cultures that surround me. I am the only person who is true to myself and I don’t have to be fake or pretentious when I am surrounded by people so different from me.

Traveling taught me that I do not have to feel like an outsider anymore, because I know that although I may be surrounded by many people, I am an insider when I get the next opportunity to travel to a new thrilling destination.

All I have to do is take a step back and remember the experiences that travel has brought to my heart. When is the last time that you disconnected with society and reconnected with yourself? 

About Jannie V. Jonker Jr.

I am an adventure seeker of the transformation that one finds while traveling. We leave something of ourselves behind when we visit a place; we stay there, even though we return home. And there are things in us that we can find again only by going back there. I believe traveling is a journey within ourselves, and Keen Adventures is committed to enable these experiences for our customers.

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